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As I move through my daily life I am at times torn by the knowledge of my mortality. My heart aches at the knowing that I am caught in the frailty of time. I know my future self would do anything to be back in even the most challenging of moments with my children, family, friend or simply myself. I lean towards the God of heaven in my mind and heart. I… Read More
On one particular evening with a blue moon hanging in the sky going to work felt slightly risky. I am not generally superstitious, but it truly seems as though a full moon leads to chaos amongst our patient populations. At the beginning of my shift I noticed a bowl filled with small apples sitting on the break room table. I ate one. As I bit into the fruit my mouth watered heavily…. Read More
The days are covered in frost. The sky is mixed with hues of blues and whites. I sit in the passenger seat. The truck is being driven by the sound mind and sturdy hands of my husband. Our children entertain themselves in the back. They are safe and well fed. I feel myself being held up. I am at peace. I look out the window as we drive. I feel mature. Somewhere… Read More
I started to take piano lessons somewhere around the time of Covid 19. Weekly I would go, when I could actually attend a lesson, to a ladies house to learn. Lessons were in the basement with large windows and a well lit view to the outside. In this place I found peace. Lessons became therapy and a place to escape the fears I felt swirling around in the world. Thankfully the passage… Read More
Have you ever considered the comfort of the walls around you or the floor beneath your feet? Recently, I considered this as I turned off the light switch and walked down the dark hallway towards my bedroom. My hands slid against the wall as I felt my way along. My feet pressed against the floor as I moved my body towards the door. For some reason the darkness felt denser and my… Read More
The sky is vast. A sea of blue water stretches out above. Geese honk in its air. The golden leaves flutter. They are free in the wind. When I look at my cares I feel stunted. But, when I look at you Jesus I see endless possibility. When I think of you, all becomes found. When you open my eyes I see beauty in these waters. When I breathe it’s air I… Read More
I grew up on a normal street. A paved road in front of a double wide. A half circle drive way covered by rocks. Two large trees and a fence. A front door and some wooden steps. A sea of brown shag carpet under my feet. I had hope. To be like my mother. To be even better. I hoped to give. Yet waited restlessly. Not trusting in the process. Nor in… Read More
When I entered the doors of the new hospital in our town I was struck in awe by the wide hallways and large windows. Light streamed in from all directions. Tall white walls loomed around me like that of a grande temple. The voice of the tour guide was muted in the front row of people I followed. I was too busy being mesmerized. The building was beautiful. The stark difference between… Read More
Life is beautiful. You find yourself smiling as you walk through the garden of your own life. The flowers of joy spring up all around you even as the snow of the world flies. The green grass grows like fresh thoughts of the future. A hope lays ahead of you on its path. As you live happily distracted invisible arms set a box upon your back. The box is labeled worry. The… Read More
I have a vague memory of sitting at a brown table. I don’t feel well. I am drinking hot water with drops of peppermint oil. The fumes are stinging my face. I can feel a pull towards my parents, and I miss them. I am at my Grandparents home. Its interesting. It is not a normal house, but rather a large kind of shop. The main entrance is on the side of… Read More
Wonders & Blunders 