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When I entered the doors of the new hospital in our town I was struck in awe by the wide hallways and large windows. Light streamed in from all directions. Tall white walls loomed around me like that of a grande temple. The voice of the tour guide was muted in the front row of people I followed. I was too busy being mesmerized. The building was beautiful. The stark difference between… Read More
In your mind picture the person you are the most fond of. Now picture them walking along a sidewalk on a sunny day. The backdrop of the blue sky highlighting their form. Consider the curves of their face. Think of their smile and how it sparks your heart. Move through your thoughts on why you love this person. Can you hear their voice in your head? Is there something they say to… Read More
My husband is an undiscovered inventor. He contemplates before he creates. Meticulously he analyzes and moves the topic around in his mind. When he does start to move, all I have to do is have a little faith. If I am patient enough my questions about what he is doing will eventually be answered along the way. He is thoughtfully creative. For our daughters second birthday he wanted to do something spectacular… Read More
I wonder if one day I will sit on the green grass and see my silver hair blowing loosely in my field of view. I wonder if I will see the shadow of my youth resting deeply within the wrinkles and lines of my face in the mirror. I wonder if I’ll be the elderly lady laying in a hospital bed watching the young nurse fumble through my pills. Maybe I’ll have… Read More
One night I had this vivid dream. I was in another realm. There were people there that I loved such as my husband. There were no children. The atmosphere was messy. There were large cliffs of dirt and hills of brown sand. Large giants hid themselves under the ground. I knew I had to protect myself. I believe I felt strengthened by my resolve to live. I watched others being taken down… Read More
As our bodies grow old and change I believe our spirits evolve into something bigger. My husband’s grandfather was an influential man. His soul was much bigger than his body. He took up space in a room and had so much spiritual weight. No one could have known him for any amount of time without feeling the affect of his influence. With his recent passing, heavens gain has gripped us painfully. My… Read More
To Have Faith is an act of courage. It takes courage to close your eyes and enter into the presence of an almighty God. It is not a burden, but rather a special gift available to you if you are willing to receive it. It is made possible by Jesus. Jesus made the way spiritually for us to go straight to God. Jesus was the perfect sacrifice Why did we need him?… Read More
Some days I feel overwhelmed with the varying thoughts of humanity regarding God. They seem to speak of all that is required of us rather than directing our thoughts towards all that God has done. These thoughts lead to a place where I feel like I am desperately failing. These thoughts weigh me down. On one particular day I had felt heavy due to a darkly religious Facebook post someone wrote. This… Read More
August 13, 2003 21 years old, I had an abortion. I was 12 weeks pregnant, despite the ultrasound, her heart beating with life, I killed my own child. I woke up in a chair, a nurse feeding me cookies, telling me to rub my stomach so clots would come out of my womb. Lifeless. Everything was numb. I realized then that I was dead. I was always dead and I just didn’t… Read More
There is no distance I cannot travel with your waves beneath my feet. Your spirit carries me across the mountains, prairies, and the seas. I stand upon the ocean, and I stare into it’s depths. I see the whale you have created majestic and immense. You are the very notes upon these waters. Jesus, you are the sound. The rhythm of your water laps continually upon this ground. I hear you. I… Read More
Wonders & Blunders 