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One day at work I sat in a coworkers office. I was distracted by the bare walls and lack of art work. There were no pictures, and even worse no windows. Feeling stifled I decided to draw them a picture. I just didn’t know what to draw. So, I shyly asked what their favourite flower was. They told me it was a peony and that their favourite colour was pink. I took… Read More

You

You…my little laugh,  my Happy, and sometimes my sad. My run into my arms reminder that Im a safe place.  You’re the “go away Mommy!” You need your space.  The little mirror that shows me my ways.  A copy cat who repeats every phrase. My eventual forgiveness. A special kind of grace. You see me as beautiful. I can see it in your face. In you, is your father. In you, is me. It’s… Read More

March14, 2021- Family Trip to Jasper, Alberta My feet rested on the ice covered ground. With blue sky and mountains surrounding me I drank in deeply the clean fresh air. My face was uncovered and it felt good to breathe. My son was sitting with me on the log bench. The plaque on it continually paying tribute to a 24 year old male who had lost his life falling into the canyon… Read More

Grief is alive. It’s a living creature that hides, and unexpected triggers reveal it. As I write this, I am sitting below a large painting of two horses. It’s one of my very own unexpected triggers. Like the tears that come when they want to old memory’s emerge without warning. A memory of my sister riding a shiny palomino flashes through my mind. Heaven gave me the gift of two sisters. They… Read More

Some days I feel overwhelmed with the varying thoughts of humanity regarding God. They seem to speak of all that is required of us rather than directing our thoughts towards all that God has done. These thoughts lead to a place where I feel like I am desperately failing. These thoughts weigh me down. On one particular day I had felt heavy due to a darkly religious Facebook post someone wrote. This… Read More

July 4th, 2020 I was standing at the kitchen sink when my 2 year old daughter approached me. Her outstretched hand was facing palm up. I think it was her right hand. She appeared to be handing me something. I made an exclamatory response and said “for me!” She responded that yes it was for me. I played along. I reached out with both my hands and grasped the invisible thing. “Thank… Read More

It’s there lurking in your pocket, purse or hand. You never leave home without it. It’s always close. You let it inside of your most valuable moments. You take it to the bathroom. It’s there when you brush your hair. You place it next to your bed as you sleep or, make love. You take it on dates. Dinners for two are now dinners for four. It’s near to you when you… Read More

If I were a dandelion the world would see me as a weed. Until someone came along and took a closer look. Then they would see, I am vibrant in colour, prolific in nature, and nutritiously life giving. The majority does not determine the truth . You cannot just exterminate me, because to you, I am not growing where I am supposed to grow. Powerful…. Like a dandelion, you must pull me… Read More

August 13, 2003 21 years old, I had an abortion. I was 12 weeks pregnant, despite the ultrasound, her heart beating with life, I killed my own child. I woke up in a chair, a nurse feeding me cookies, telling me to rub my stomach so clots would come out of my womb. Lifeless. Everything was numb. I realized then that I was dead. I was always dead and I just didn’t… Read More

Empty, one use left. My inclination is to squander its use, and save it. Then a liberating thought comes to my heart. At this moment I get to use it. At this moment I will embrace what I have for at this moment I have enough. Instead of allowing my future lack in the next moment to overcome me, I allow the joy of enough to blossom. I am willing to embrace… Read More