One night I had this vivid dream. I was in another realm. There were people there that I loved such as my husband. There were no children. The atmosphere was messy. There were large cliffs of dirt and hills of brown sand. Large giants hid themselves under the ground. I knew I had to protect myself. I believe I felt strengthened by my resolve to live. I watched others being taken down by these indescribable monsters. They would fight with all they had and still never win.

I hunkered down in the shade of a sandy hill and dug through my bag. I found anything I could that could be used as a weapon. In my memory I am looking down at my hands. There is a nail clipper, pens, and some other odds and ends. The kind of mix matched pile that comes from a purse like mine. I handed others some of my pens. Their desperation was loudly felt. I handed my husband one of my sharper items. I think it was a nail file. Some part of me said goodbye to him as I did so. Then things changed and it was every man/woman for them-self.

I looked behind me. There was a man and a woman lingering around a sleeping giant. I could see it’s heaving body under the sand. They were being protected by him and in exchange were doing his bidding. They sold themselves. Then the giant rose up. It came after me. With all of my might I swung at him hitting the right side of its chest with the sharp object I had in my right hand. It did nothing. It only made him mad.

Then I woke up. I found myself wondering about the possible meaning of this dream. I wondered who I was fighting against and what were my weapons.

The bible says “For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against nightly powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.”

Although the fists of flesh are very real there is something more sinister lurking in the background of humanity. It is the enemy of God and He is seeking a way to destroy us. But, just like Jesus who was God in the flesh the enemy to needs human body’s to operate in this realm. He uses our weakness, our lusts, and our sinful nature to gain access to us and to move us like pawns. We are his great weapon against ourselves.

Waiting at the end of all my fear and realities of the enemy you are facing is God. In 2nd Corinthians 10:4 ESV it talks about weapons. “For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds.”

But the greatest weapon above all is Jesus. The bible says in Revelation 12:11 “And they have defeated him by the blood of the lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die.”

Do you find that some days it feels like you are fighting monsters with paper clips? Do you feel that you are fighting a battle that you can never win?