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As I move through my daily life I am at times torn by the knowledge of my mortality. My heart aches at the knowing that I am caught in the frailty of time. I know my future self would do anything to be back in even the most challenging of moments with my children, family, friend or simply myself. I lean towards the God of heaven in my mind and heart. I… Read More
On one particular evening with a blue moon hanging in the sky going to work felt slightly risky. I am not generally superstitious, but it truly seems as though a full moon leads to chaos amongst our patient populations. At the beginning of my shift I noticed a bowl filled with small apples sitting on the break room table. I ate one. As I bit into the fruit my mouth watered heavily…. Read More
Have you ever considered the comfort of the walls around you or the floor beneath your feet? Recently, I considered this as I turned off the light switch and walked down the dark hallway towards my bedroom. My hands slid against the wall as I felt my way along. My feet pressed against the floor as I moved my body towards the door. For some reason the darkness felt denser and my… Read More
When I entered the doors of the new hospital in our town I was struck in awe by the wide hallways and large windows. Light streamed in from all directions. Tall white walls loomed around me like that of a grande temple. The voice of the tour guide was muted in the front row of people I followed. I was too busy being mesmerized. The building was beautiful. The stark difference between… Read More
Some days I see the dishes like Rocky mountains piling high. But then… I remember the meals we made, my ability to nourish your little body and the hope of using those dishes again. Some days I feel so out of shape and unhealthy. But then… Your little hands reach out to me and we dance endlessly in the kitchen as I toss you strongly into the air. Some days I feel… Read More
My husband is an undiscovered inventor. He contemplates before he creates. Meticulously he analyzes and moves the topic around in his mind. When he does start to move, all I have to do is have a little faith. If I am patient enough my questions about what he is doing will eventually be answered along the way. He is thoughtfully creative. For our daughters second birthday he wanted to do something spectacular… Read More
I’m sitting in the sunshine drinking a cup of hot steamy coffee. I’m trying a new flavour of coffee creamer, pumpkin spice. There is laundry piled up high in my basement, dirt on my kitchen floor and dirty dishes in my sink. They call out to me but I ignore them. My handsome husband is at work. The thought of him makes me smile. Knowing he is out there keeps my back… Read More
I wonder if one day I will sit on the green grass and see my silver hair blowing loosely in my field of view. I wonder if I will see the shadow of my youth resting deeply within the wrinkles and lines of my face in the mirror. I wonder if I’ll be the elderly lady laying in a hospital bed watching the young nurse fumble through my pills. Maybe I’ll have… Read More
One night I had this vivid dream. I was in another realm. There were people there that I loved such as my husband. There were no children. The atmosphere was messy. There were large cliffs of dirt and hills of brown sand. Large giants hid themselves under the ground. I knew I had to protect myself. I believe I felt strengthened by my resolve to live. I watched others being taken down… Read More
It’s there lurking in your pocket, purse or hand. You never leave home without it. It’s always close. You let it inside of your most valuable moments. You take it to the bathroom. It’s there when you brush your hair. You place it next to your bed as you sleep or, make love. You take it on dates. Dinners for two are now dinners for four. It’s near to you when you… Read More
Wonders & Blunders 