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August 13, 2003 21 years old, I had an abortion. I was 12 weeks pregnant, despite the ultrasound, her heart beating with life, I killed my own child. I woke up in a chair, a nurse feeding me cookies, telling me to rub my stomach so clots would come out of my womb. Lifeless. Everything was numb. I realized then that I was dead. I was always dead and I just didn’t… Read More
Empty, one use left. My inclination is to squander its use, and save it. Then a liberating thought comes to my heart. At this moment I get to use it. At this moment I will embrace what I have for at this moment I have enough. Instead of allowing my future lack in the next moment to overcome me, I allow the joy of enough to blossom. I am willing to embrace… Read More
1023, on a weekday, I was sitting in the kitchen drinking too much coffee. Our daughter picked up her stuffed tan dog and started dancing around the kitchen waving it in the air. Wearing nothing but her diaper she joyfully staggered around on her little toddler feet. Everything was more Beautiful because of her. My mother heart felt as though it was swelling rapidly with wonder, love and appreciation. Her vibrancy astounds… Read More
The linoleum presses against my knees, and when I open up my eyes the kitchen table sits in my field of view. I am kneeling down at the throne of God in faith. My hope is in you oh God. My hope is that your kingdom would permeate throughout the spaces of my body, mind, soul, spirit, life, relationships, job and all the other places I haven’t thought of. Hope is the… Read More
There is no distance I cannot travel with your waves beneath my feet. Your spirit carries me across the mountains, prairies, and the seas. I stand upon the ocean, and I stare into it’s depths. I see the whale you have created majestic and immense. You are the very notes upon these waters. Jesus, you are the sound. The rhythm of your water laps continually upon this ground. I hear you. I… Read More
Wonders & Blunders 